Anxious, I suppose. I'm trying to make an effort to hang out with people I haven't seen in forever and it's been going alright for the most part. But, when it comes down to one person, I keep saying that I'll message her and see if she wants to hang out, but I wind up never doing it. We're still friends, but I don't know if there's anything more to it. At the very least, if we could just hang out again every now and then, I'd be happy with that. But we've only communicated indirectly through each other's posts on facebook. We don't have each other's numbers. And it's been about five years since we last saw each other in person. A friend of mine and my sister say that I should just message her and see if she wants to hang out or grab a bite to eat sometime, but I psyche myself out whenever I try to send a message.
I'm an awkward person. I don't understand jokes and I can't always tell if something is sarcastic. I have problems saying what's on my mind or how I feel about things. Nothing interesting or good happens in my life. There's nothing to like about me. I don't even know if when we hung out, if she legitimately liked me or it was just that we were both drunk. Besides all of that, wouldn't be weird to suddenly get messaged by someone you haven't seen in half a decade asking to hang out?
I'm pretty useless at this stuff.